Thinking of the End – Fear and Self Defeating Thoughts

It’s 5  o’clock in the morning and I’ve been up since 3. Feeling tired and alone with my thoughts makes me contemplate some dark things. Will I ever amount to anything? Will I accomplish anything in this life? What happens  when we die?

 

Its the unknown that gets me. It’s the unknown that strikes the fear in me. The thought that if I die I won’t know what will happen with me, that I don’t really know if there is an afterlife, how it will feel and if I would have done anything in my lifetime.

 

I so need sleep.

Wishcraft: Chapter Two

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Yes or No (pg. 15)

  1. Were you treated as though you had a unique kind of genius that was loved and respected?
    • yes.
  2. Were you told that you could do and be anything you wanted – and that you’d be loved and admired no matter what it was?
    • yes.
  3. Were you given real help and encouragement in finding out what you wanted to do – and how to do it?
    • yes.
  4. Were you encouraged to explore all your own talents and interests even if they changed from day to day?
    • yes.
  5. Were you allowed to complain when the going got rough and given sympathy instead of being told to quit? Were you allowed to complain when the going got rough? Were you given sympathy instead of being told to quit?
    • yes. no.
  6. Were you bailed out when you got in over your head – without reproach?
    • yes.
  7. Were you surrounded by winners who were pleased when you won?
    • no.

Exercise 3 (pg. 24) What you might have been

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Wishcraft: Chapter One

My family (my mom, sister and husband)  and I have decided to read a book called Wishcraft: How to Get What You Really Want by Barbara Sher and follow the activities presented chapter by chapter. My mom and my sister have made this a weekly thing and because I have a three month old son, I’m a little late to the game.

I’ve decided that I’ll post my answers to the questions asked on here as I complete each chapter. I am doing this for one reason, to document my journey to finding what I want – my true calling.

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Exercise One

Voided

Exercise 2 (pg. 10)

  1. What especially attracted and fascinated you when you were a child?
    • fantasy worlds such as cartoons, mythology, and my imagination
  2. What sense-sight, hearing, touch-did you live most through, or did you enjoy them all equally?
    • sight
  3. What did you love to do, or to daydream about, no matter how “silly” or unimportant it may seem to you now? What were the secret fantasies and games that you never told anybody about?
    • traveling, characters, scenarios
  4. Does it feel like there’s still a part of you that loves those things?
    • yes.
  5. What talents or abilities might those early interests and dreams point to?
    • writing – short stories, novel, screenplay, graphic novel/comic script -, acting,

~Chapters~

[One], [Two], [Three], [Four] [Five], [Six], [Seven], [Eight], [Nine], [Ten]